Breaking the Filter

I must admit that in the midst of the busyness/laziness, I started to silence God. I was always aware of his presence, but I choose to ignore him. It's like I was drowning and instead of reaching out for help I started to just swallow loads of water hoping that I would eventually surface. Here's a hint, that will never work.

So over half a year later, I come to a point where God is just yelling at me to pay attention. Every where I look, He's there and I would just look pass him as if there's a perception filter.

In the beginning of July, I was visiting NYC with Annie to see my older sister n her new hubby. So all of us got to go visit a new church while we were there and the pastor decided to talk about suffering. Sometimes in our lives, we must experience suffering for us to see God.

After the talk, God's voice started piercing through. It wasn't until today, that the perception filter was completely gone and I could see God shouting at me to get my attention. I always knew that God was the answer to all of my problems, but for some reason I choose to ignore what I knew.

Once, you acknowledge Him standing right in front of you. There is nothing he won't fix. I still have a long way to go, but there is always comfort in knowing that I got a companion on the way no matter what.

"God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us." (Acts 17:27 NIV)