Growing up and Trusting God

Recently Life has turned to an interesting game of nerves.

I have always been the planner and determined individual but lately I have found myself scare and completely unaware of what step to take next. I'm finally growing up. As I finish up my graduate program, I realized that I must become a serious member of society and get a "grown up job." Up to now, I have spent my life as a career student but the time is coming where I have to prove to the world that I have actually can use my brains to benefit society.

In the midst of all of this insecurity, I find hope. I've been here before, I have been the scared little child who has no idea what to do next. The amazing news is that I have an amazing Father in heaven. I have been blessed with amazing parents at home, but there is a greater sense of Joy that comes from knowing that I can always run into the arms of God.

God created the world in six days, I pretty sure He can create an awesome future for me. After all I am named after Queen Esther. I was destined for greatness. ;)

In all seriousness, I have been extremely blessed throughout the years. In all my years of planning and trying to fit God into my plan, I have found this time and time again that God is way better at writing my story than I am. His is a story of love while mine is a story of pride. I think Jeremiah 29:11 says it best. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

So as I continue this season of dependence on the almighty one, I can only hold on to his wonderful promises. I trust that GOD has plans for me that are greater than I could have ever imagined. I think I am finally becoming an adult. Maybe.